26.4.07

i haven't post for quite a long time as i'm busy adjusting to poly life. still adapting. feeling sad these days... its a very mild pain that comes with emotion-less. you've got to experience it, its kinda cool. like, everything appears normal, you act normal but your heart is completely empty.

so... the second degree of heartbreak. and i failed hip hop audition. suddenly, i realised that i have no niche area. im just average for eth. looks, piano skills, singing, academic, etc. and i felt really pathetic. but after thinking for some time, its kinda okay, i'll just start to carve one. never too late. plus, many ppl survive on fine without a niche. i already got passion to survive on. and a fine family, good friends, and a heart that appreciates eth (almost). everyday, every experience, humans will just grow tougher. (:

hmm. i've also realised an absolute truth (duh, truths are absolute) about my mates in the course. i'd think of ppl who wanna study psychology as presumely a certain sort of ppl. it wasn't an assumption. the most a prediction. but it turns out, after i mingle in my tutorial group, alot of them have flaws. they dont attempt to hide them and they are fine with it. its like they think its part of the package. but thats okay to me, at least for now. i kinda feel more trusting with ppl who are obvious with their flaws. not that they won't hide their worse flaws, but at least they wont make me feel they'll jump and slam something bad on me. and i realise they do have problems, and traps. i also have wished all of them are matured and are self-aware of their emotions, thoughts processes, biasness, emotion traps, blah blah. but i know that humans are hard to be. thats probably y im feeling so upset. over-dramatically grieving over eth by appearing fine.

i know that no one can get me down except myself. so im not going to cry and get myself into some pathetic emotion trap. i feel better and i believe i'll feel even better tml (provided i stop falling sick. really pissing me off)! thanks to Jo and Gary for eth. i know i can be quite naggy at times. (:

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"Happiness is enjoying, not owning" (Joanna, 2007)
"Happiness is a journey, not a destination" (Henry 2007)
"Gravity is the only constant"
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i'm living everyday like my last. i don't have much time left, so allow me to be emotional, to treasure life, to think simple.

list of death-occurring work

none (:


links&credits

yvonne's blogshop
friend.
friend.
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designer;jolene!








wishlist/wish-to-dos

new back-to-school bag
get a haircut
clean room
hang up puzzle
clothes!
completing the modules quite well
find a dance partner/ new cca
practise on the piano
lose weight
find an interest in music or dance